CURSED???

Im so mad.. am furious... am horrified..
It feels like I wanna explode...
I just wanted to love and be love in return.
To be happy, to be really happy...
But why is it always in me..
The curse..
Am i cursed? am i a jinx?
Why is it me that is always flooded with problems..
Hypocrites surrounds me..
They are dragging me down...
I know I am strong... But why do I feel weak..
This set-up confuses me. and definetly tearing me apart..
I want to let the bitch find the bitch in me and
then its time for payback..

am hurt.. i dont wanna be lonely...